Did you ever notice how the busier you are, the less time you have to dwell on things and be moody? I guess it's really a good thing, when you think about it. It's also why some people get so wrapped up in their work that nothing else matters. The only problem is, if whatever is making you busy is taken away, you are forced to contemplate. Wherein lies the problem. I am currently very busy, so I'm not contemplating anything, just contemplating that I could be contemplating if I didn't have so much to do.

I can't seem to learn anything this year. It's like I just don't care anymore. I'm a senior, and I don't really want to leave, so maybe I'm subconciously trying to stay by failing. Well, I would hardly call a B failing, but I am becoming a total slacker. I just want to sleep, eat, and talk lately. I need a swift kick in the arse to jumpstart me back to caring. Any takers?

I've been so wrapped up in my own life lately that I haven't even thought of blogging. I guess that's kind of wrong. This used to be my only means of self-expression, since everything else I do is so cut and dry. Now with ceramics, I'm getting a lot out in clay. It's so soothing and repetitive that don't I find myself driven to blog. This may be a good direction for the site to go, actually. We'll see. I could definitely get used to having ceramics as a hobby. It really sucks with deadlines and as a night class, but if I could just do it on my own... I would love it. My first pieces were fired this week - tiny little spirit balls that rattle when you shake them. It was the most awesome feeling of pride and accomplishment to just hold those things. I can't imagine what it will feel like when I finish and glaze a major piece. I'll be so excited I'll probably break it!

Yesterday was sorority fall bid day. We got 12 new girls!! They are so awesome and amazing I can't even believe it. It feels good to be part of a group that is so well represented around campus that we draw the cream of the crop! I think I'm a little too exciting, since this is my first rush and all. Yeah, I'm nuts... GAMS ROCK!

Things are going well, for once in my life. I do feel like everything is a little too hectic for me to handle at times, but I'm definitely feeling more like laughing, bonding, and sharing than usual. Emotions are so fickle. I wish I could understand why I feel things the way I do. It sure would make things a lot easier. I could avoid those things I knew would be upsetting, and do the things that make me happy. I wouldn't let myself get into situations that aren't good for me. I guess it's ok the way it is. Everyone needs a little variety in their lives, if just to keep things spiced up. This sounds rather melancholy, even if I did say I was feeling happy. Weird.

See you all at the Blarney Stone tonight. Lauran's 21!

Hmm, a whole week has passed. I dropped a raucous class, added a great one, and life is in balance again. OUT with organic chemistry II, in with CERAMICS!!! I've already made a couple of things, although they haven't been fired or glazed yet. It's a three hour-long night class, but it looks like it will be a blast. I'm not the most creative person alive, but I do enjoy the act of making something out of (literally) a lump of clay. Maybe this will bring about a new hobby for me, open some creative channels and such. We shall see. The monotony of meetings is starting again. At least I was free for a week. Now I'll be shuffling here and there, listening to business, going through adding new members, and bonding at every turn. Why couldn't I just join one thing? That would be too easy, right?

This weekend was a blast. We hit the Italian festival, the mall, and Audra all in one weekend. I got a huge drinking cup, a new poster and sleep shirt, and a sunburn, respectively. If the fun we had is any indication of the year to come, it's going to be a great one.

PS: NEVER let them in your butthole...