for the first time all week, i have a little bit of time when i can actually relax. it feels unnatural almost. i still have tons of stuff to do, but since i only have one class tomorrow, i feel myself sliding into slacking off. i don't know how i let myself get so behind in everything. i owe dr. warner (my global minorities teacher) at least 8 back-essays i didn't do as well as 3 new ones that are assigned for friday. that man is insane. his class is stupid-easy, but it's all busy work. i can't even keep up with the amounts of things he wants, and none of them are at all relevant. we have to memorize and label on a map the countries that were formed after the soviet union broke up. am i in sixth grade here or what? tell me how geography of the former soviet republics is going to help me understand the minority struggles that went on there. sure, the stories of how and why they broke off might help, but labelling them on a map? good grief... that class is turning into straight history and no minorities. evolution discussions for this week are going pretty well though. i can never quite finish the entire reading for the next class though. i am killing myself with homework. at least i'm not as bad as some of the other girls in my pledge class. they can count the number of hours they've slept in the last week on one hand. i just give up and go to bed when i get that tired. i don't function well on little or no sleep.
which is what i'm on now actually. i had to get up at 4:45 am (long story).
i am so dead tired. did anyone say bed?? no?? maybe that was just my mind sending me a subliminal message...

still busier than anyone has any right to be, but...

i got my gam big!!! i love you paula, and julie, and grandbig sarabeth!!! family 24 is the bomb!!! what an exciting night we had last night. if i only had less homework, i could have spent the evening hanging out and having fun.

well, off to survey i go... :-P

my weekend wasn't too bad. i got to celebrate the 21st birthday of two of my best friends, and do about 8 loads of laundry! score... but when i got back, it all went downhill. we have study tables for sorority, and all the pledges have to complete 30 hours before initiation. well, i've gone to 4 hours so far, but apparently, none of them count. why you ask? because at least 15 of our 16 pledges weren't there. so i go, waste time i could be using to actually study, and it doesn't count. yeah, i'm bitter. i just hope it gets better soon. then, i had so much work to do, after study tables reamed me, that i decided to miss kappa phi in order to get my reading done for evolution. i never ever miss kappa phi, and i decided it was a necessity last night and definitely a good reason. academics first, right? wrong again. apparently, only a third of the club was there and they voted to make homework not a valid excuse anymore. the first time i used it. i came to almost everything before, but now, i feel threatened and caged in. the club has stopped being fun for me and started being an obligation. i just don't know what to do anymore. oh and yeah, all that homework? i didn't even get to help with any of our gam banner, which is not done by the way. it's due tonight. go us! i'm in a rotten mood...

i went skiing for the very first time today. it was the most terrifying thing i've done in a long time. nick and i and our friend laura from down the hall went to timberline, which has special college student rates of $8 a rental and $13 for lift ticket, plus it's only about an hour and 15 minutes away from here. i was nervous and anxious before we left, but tried to be optimistic. after renting skiis and having my boots pinch my leg, i found myself on my butt after simply trying to stand in my skiis on the snow. nick convinced me to keep trying, but by some evil twist of fate, we got on the chair lift to an intermediate (blue square) hill. i was crying and blubbering and fell down as soon as the lift got to the top. it took another half an hour at least for me to reach the bottom, because when i got halfway down, i decided to walk the rest of the way. i got bold again near the bottom and put my skiis on again, but i accidentally skiied under a caution fence and over a bank. not good times. i started to get the hang of it after that, when we finally found the bunny slope. i made a few really good runs without falling down. i think i could do it again. laura got a snowboard, nearly sprained her ankle, and is going in for a thumb x-ray tomorrow. but hey, she's optimistic about going again soon. anyone wanna go?? :-)

A Scientific American article states "subjects who slept seven hours a night had the best survival rates. In fact, according to the report, the group sleeping eight hours a night were 12 percent more likely to die over the course of the study than were those sleeping seven hours a night. Moreover, people sleeping as little as five hours a night also lived longer than eight-hours-plus sleepers did. There does appear to be a minimum rest requirement, however, because sleeping less than four hours a night was also associated with an increased death rate."

guess i shouldn't feel bad about not getting enough sleep. between 6 and 7 hours a night is my average, and while i'm often tired, i do ok. in fact, i get more sleep than most college students (at night at least, everyone i know but me naps 4 hours a day). you 8 hours-ers had better watch out. your days are numbered, my friends....

ok, so i'm back into a good mood. all i have to say is "i'm a gam. yay!" (thanks julie)

and, if you want to get in my mindset for today, or if you're studying for survey too, take a look at this: the infectious organism dance
it's lots of good fun

so deep deep, so down down,
so deep deep, so down down,
in my heart *mwah* whoo!

everyone around me is depressed. maybe not totally, like, medicate-me-clinically-depressed, but noone is happy. i somehow always feel like it's my fault. i'm sorry i couldn't go out that one time, or that i didn't call you for lunch. would that have cheered you up? what if i'd have sent you an email with cheesy smiley faces in it, or talked with you for hours? but i wax poetic. no, it's not about you, it's about people in general. it's not my fault, and i won't feel guilty anymore. why can't you be happy for me? things are finally going good for me, and i want to share my joy with everyone i know.

to add to the depression, a guy here fell out his third story window saturday night onto concrete (steps i think). he's in the hospital with lots of problems, but i guess he's going to be ok. it was the building next door to me. if i'd been up, i probably would have heard his screams... his window was only open about 10 inches, but it was level with his bed. they think he was trying to puke.... happy bid weekend and jump everybody, here's what happens.

well, i have the two biggest tests of the semester thus far tomorrow and wednesday. it's 1 pm and i haven't studied a thing. i know nothing, and frankly, i don't really care right now. i hope i can get myself in action to memorize more than the measly few thnings i know now... good grief, i thought i was the cheery one...

yeah!! rush is finally over, all the stress and worrying has ended, bids have been given and accepted.... and i'm an ALPHA GAM!!!! who'd have ever pictured me as a sorority girl, right? lol. it's good times. all i know is that i got up close and personal with the yucket bucket this morning, and i liked it! now, all i crave is sleep, water, and food, in that order. who knows when i'll get them.

"Just wanna be an Alpha Gamma Delta
Just wanna wear those 14 pearls
If I can't have this, which I know is best
I don't want no badge at all!!!"

AGD rocks!

*lifts head groggily to look around*
i hate hate hate sleeping during the day. today, i wanted to watch cartoons while laying down on my futon. i got sleepy, then rationalized that nick would be getting out of class in 20 mins anyway, so his phone call would wake me up. nick, noticing that i'm away on AIM, doesn't call or anything, so i sleep for an hour and a half. that is an awful amount of time to sleep. to make things worse, i was laying on my cheekbone, with one arm up under my body, and my legs twisted up behind me. so yeah, now i have an interesting red blotchy cheek to top off my groggy disoriented-ness. and i have to get ready to go to work soon too. maybe i'll actually get some homework done there today. sure would be nice.

so skit night was awesome. i was served sparkling cider and tons of chocolate and goodness. who'd have ever guessed it? i'm hopeful about my possibilities, even though i only have one invitation for tomorrow night. *fingers crossed*

well, off to wake my self up some more before work...

has anyone else realized that almost all good ecard sites have gone to a paid-membership program??!?! the only one i found of my old favorites that still offered a free birthday card was hallmark.com, and that would be the first one i'd expect to go to paid!!! grr!!! ok, no more ranting. off to skit night!! (more info to come on that one)

ok, so i've been lacking in motivation to post lately. i actually have a lot to say, i just don't. i don't know what it is. anyway, it has been a hectic couple of weeks. i had such a blast last weekend (cleavage!). it was hell's angels night at chi phi, and i decided to not sit on my butt all night, for once. good times were had by all.

if you haven't seen tiff's movie yet, you should go there and check it out. it's awesome, because she has mad skills.

Which drink are you?

ok guys, you have got to check this out:

colorgenics

let me know about your results and whether or not it fit you. (it's really short, don't worry)